Anecdotes by Kathryn Mockler
Author:Kathryn Mockler [Mockler, Kathryn]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Book*hug Press
Published: 2023-08-02T01:48:28+00:00
SKIPPING
You believe you are ugly. You have been ugly all your life. You wear sunglasses whenever you can so no one sees your face. You were born with a lazy eye and the surgeries opened it but made you disfigured. They made your eye not quite close all the way and peak like a triangle. The kids in elementary school called you Popeye. Clever actually. By the time your mother found a good doctor, the specialist, there was nothing that could be done.
Ever since you could remember, adults had asked your parents about your eye, and kids at school found new ways each year to let you know just how disgusting they thought you were. So you tried to look normal by wearing your hair over your eye. You realized that you would rather have people wonder why your hair was over your eye than actually see your eye. You try to imagine what it would be like to walk around in life and not be ashamed of your face.
You know that feeling when you decide to skip school and meet your boyfriend, your relatively new boyfriend, downtown at the mall. Itâs March and youâve been dating since February. And heâs really cute. Heâs bad for you, but you wonât realize this for four years. So right now thereâs this cute boy waiting for you at the Galleria, and youâre going record shopping.
You get off the 6 Richmond bus and walk down Dundas toward the mall. Itâs before 9:00 a.m. and the sky is bright and hopeful and the air is cool. You can see your breath. You didnât bring mittens or a scarf. You never wear a hat. Your pea coat is open and the air makes you shiver. All you can think about is having a cigarette, so you go into the variety store and buy a pack and light one up and look around at the empty streets. Some people are going to work, but most of the stores havenât even opened yet.
Everything feels quiet and settled. You donât know it right in this moment, but youâre going to skip school for the next two weeks because your mother will go on a bender and youâll want to get back at her the only way you know how. You will be suspended for another two weeks by the guidance counsellor who had contracted polio as a child. One of his arms is smaller than the other. You wonât feel sorry for him because heâs mean, and he reminds you of yourself more than you care to admit. But right now this feeling of freedom is addictive. You want it to last the same way you want your cigarette to last.
You make your way to the mall, where your boyfriend is waiting for you. He has headphones on and is probably listening to his favourite band, which is now your favourite band. He wears a leather motorcycle jacket, and as you walk toward him you canât believe that someone who looks like him wants to be with someone who looks like you.
Download
This site does not store any files on its server. We only index and link to content provided by other sites. Please contact the content providers to delete copyright contents if any and email us, we'll remove relevant links or contents immediately.
In Control (The City Series) by Crystal Serowka(35390)
The Wolf Sea (The Oathsworn Series, Book 2) by Low Robert(33891)
We Ride Upon Sticks by Quan Barry(33326)
Crowbone (The Oathsworn Series, Book 5) by Low Robert(32369)
The Book of Dreams (Saxon Series) by Severin Tim(32274)
The Daughters of Foxcote Manor by Eve Chase(22319)
Trainspotting by Irvine Welsh(20102)
Call Me by Your Name by André Aciman(19015)
Shot Through The Heart (Supernature Book 1) by Edwin James(17945)
The Secret History by Donna Tartt(16699)
The Girl from the Opera House by Nancy Carson(15004)
Sad Girls by Lang Leav(13377)
American King (New Camelot #3) by Sierra Simone(13016)
Pimp by Iceberg Slim(12964)
All the Missing Girls by Megan Miranda(12795)
The Betrayed by Graham Heather(11724)
The Betrayed by David Hosp(11697)
4 3 2 1: A Novel by Paul Auster(11092)
Still Me by Jojo Moyes(9936)